When I think I will never see you again<\/p>\n
I look out of the window,<\/p>\n
And see you on a white horse<\/p>\n
Descending slowly from clouds.<\/p>\n
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You have gone so long<\/p>\n
That I do not remember your face,<\/p>\n
But looking at my finger-stub<\/p>\n
I remember how I tried to save you once.<\/p>\n
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I remember once seeing you<\/p>\n
Kissing a boy behind a rock,<\/p>\n
How I decided to jump<\/p>\n
In the ocean in front of me.<\/p>\n
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But an old friend stumbled on me,<\/p>\n
Distracting me from suicide,<\/p>\n
But the new life has not been easy,<\/p>\n
As the old troubles didn\u2019t unknot.<\/p>\n
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Memories like threads weave<\/p>\n
A fabric of an epic,<\/p>\n
Studded with romance and bravery,<\/p>\n
Separation and sorrow.<\/p>\n
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There is a dream there<\/p>\n
That never wants to die,<\/p>\n
There is a hurt there<\/p>\n
That never wants to heal.<\/p>\n
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Suffern, New Year, December 27, 2016<\/p>\n